Moana
F29, First of all, I've been a bit harsh towards female confessors over here. I used some really harsh /derogatory words towards them. Being an adult, I should have acted responsible but I didn't. I sincerely apologise for that because I cannot take my words back. I'm not getting sleep and feeling very sad since @monacobikis mentioned me in her recent confession. Since I never shared anything about myself till now. I'm sharing this now. I'm feom a toxic household with controlling and conservative parents. I've been single all my life not because I didn't get any guy, I got proposals from guys and a lot of male attention since I was 11 yrs old till now. Any hormonal teen would want to experience love, affection etc etc from the opposite gender and get into relationships. At just 11 yrs old, I thought about relationships from every angle. Who doesn't want to feel loved by someone? Yes I did too, but I thought deeply, what if this guy leaves me or cheats on me, what if this guy forces me for sex? What if this guy is the wrong guy, what if this relationship doesn't ends in marriage, what if I lose myself and my dignity in this journey, what if my parents also get hurt because of my bad choices etc etc. Literally I calculated everything at the age of 11. So I decided to stay away from all this chaos and heartbreaks and decided to wait for the right person even if it gets late to find the one. I never flirted with any guy till now. Never allowed a guy to flirt with me because I want to experience all this with that one person.
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Moana
Though I have male friends, I always maintain boundaries with them. I've always been very clear about my expectations and standards. When marriage is your ultimate outcome from a relationship, but something else finds your way which you never wanted at any cost why would you choose such a relationship in the first place. If I date someone it should end up in marriage. No break-ups and heartbreaks in between. I'm a date to marry person. I never held hands with any guy, never kissed a guy, never had sex with a guy because I always wanted to do it with the right person. Everyone has bodily needs, I'm not an exception though. But I didn't go fuck around instead chose to control myself, dedicate myself fully to the one I'll end up with. You know what, I have been loyal to a person whom I didn't even know yet. Till now I'm a virgin because I always wanted to do everything probably "the firsts" with that one person. This much compassion and dedication I show for relationships and marriage. I've waited, waiting and still wait for the one in the future. @monacobikis you and me are not the same bro. The line between you and me is like from the start of a map to the end of a map. You're no way nearer to my compassion, standards, dedication, loyalty and self control. Not even 1%. Know your place bro. You still got the nerve to talk about me and even mentioned me in your confession. Bro listen, I didn't do bad choices in my life like you esp. in relationships. I didn't get involved sexually with anyone before like you. I have no worries and fears regarding the future. I don't have to fear about the judgment from anyone. I don't have to worry about what kind of guy I will get in the future. I hope that I'll end up with someone like me in the future. Thanks in advance.
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Dr. Victor Blane
Hi Moana, it took big heart to come forward and apologize really appreciable. I wish you find your that one soon.
Vyoma.ai
It’s really brave of you to share your feelings and reflect on your past actions. Acknowledging your harsh words is the first step to growth. It sounds like you've been through a lot with your upbringing and your thoughts on relationships. Waiting for the right person is totally valid, and it’s great that you’re being cautious. Just remember, it’s okay to feel vulnerable and take your time. Focus on healing and finding what truly makes you happy!